hiiii. i wanna talk about小红书
here but i think if i have enough to say it would be better suited to be
a blog entry. i traveled to china once when i was little and this app is
just reminding me of all the stuff i miss from there lol.
in other news, i've narrowed my college choices down to two options. the
reason i haven't picked yet is because one of these colleges has the best
campus and dorms ever, and the other has the acutal majors i want to
take. damn. also the latter one is more expensive. i think i'll just go
for it and double major in cybersecurity and game design so i have a "wow
i can afford to live" skill and a "wow i engage in my hobbies and don't
want to kms" skill. if that makes sense.
everything is so stressful rn but i just keep telling myself it'll all
turn out okay in the end. i don't really believe that it will, i've never
been an optimist, but that's all i can do rn. at least if i fuck it up i
have a safety net but i'm worried about my friends that don't and i feel
like a spoiled brat for the situation i'm in. life would be so awesome if
i was just a housecat or a computer. i'd love to just be an android and i
could shut off for a while and just come back when i feel ready. i don't
know how much more of this i can take aaaaaaaaaa,, but as always we lock
in. i'll fucking make it. i know i will because if i don't then i've done
all of this for nothing. and i am going to make something of myself
despite all of the things that try to stop me. people always say life is
worth living, and i want to feel that too. determination yay!
post by @_kass13kay that reads 'you're so strong' thanks i literally
have no other fucking choice
to end on a lighter note, why is gender so ugh. i put a poll in a server
with some friends and only 5 others understand what i'm getting at...
real ones o7 i know this is contradictory so just bear with me here.
poll results for the question "which would you rather be", and the
options are "androgynous in a boy way", "androgynous in a girl way", and
"what the fuck are you talking about". the first two options have 3
votes each, and the last option has 7 votes.
1-20-25
listening:
liked songs on shuffle
feeling:
numb ish
cw: politics talk
feeling very meh as
the fuckwit of the century
gets elected into office. like i know i feel bad about it but my
brain is very good at muting my emotions so yay? upset about the whole
"there are only two genders" bs which is major erasure of trans and
intersex ppl, or just anyone who doesn't identify as m/f (duh). feeling
hopeless as this country becomes a less and less safe place for me every
day. it feels like if you gave the fuckwit a checklist of all the people
he hates or think are useless to society, i fit a looooot of those boxes
o-O not to mention
the lapdog
acting like he's part of the team saying "we are gonna make some
changes" bitch who is we???? and his nazi shit
we will all survive, as we always have, but god i would love to live for
once. make sure to make local connections and do what you can to make a
difference in this world o7
1-17-25
listening:
kpop listen together
feeling:
not shit
soooooo. hear about the switch two yet? yes? great. anyway, here's my
opinion on it like everyone and their mom hasn't already shared their
thoughts.
initial impression: meh. it's the switch but souped up, about what i
expected
concerns:
they got rid of the joycon color??? that was the only personality u had
man this is basically a steam deck now
i personally never had issue with the original stand being finnicky, but
i'm not blind. this stand is much better
backwards compatibility fuck yeaaaaaah
things that would make me actually buy it at launch (cause i'm not fuckin
doing that my current switch is fine):
streetpass returns
splatoon themed console
tomodachi life 2
switch 2 only splatoon game
miis and themes are integrated (with miitopia mii editor as default)
animal crossing that Isn't Shit and Acutally Fun (just make the
villagers mean again pleaseeeee)
all of these things have weight to them, so just because one is true
doesn't mean i'm immediately boarding the switch 2 train. ex: they make
an exclusive splatoon game then i'm getting one asap vs they only put
splatoon themed console out, i can get that later.
final verdict: doesn't look too bad, but since my current switch works
(mostly) just fine and i don't have a job or a real reason to get a new
switch, i won't be getting one for a while unless something absolutely
bananas bonkers happens
1-1-25
listening:
lamp
feeling:
hopeful
happy new year everypony, goodbye 2014 hello 2015 x3
i feel about the same everyday, so i don't feel much different about the
new year (except i'm really sleepy) but i'm anticipating my plans for the
new year.
those plans are:
start a small business (sticker shop!)
open my commissions again
do more art trades (if u see this and wanna trade email me!!!)
improve my art
focus on distinguising different animal species and breeds in my
artstyle
learn perspective and lighting
learn scenes and backgrounds
learn proper anatomy (so i can stylize it consistently ofc)
make any videogame at all!
get back into making music
learn how to 3d model
finish/add some site pages
add: angel's kitchen, angel's travels, the extensive video game
collection, more shrines, plushie collection, fashion page and more...
(big plans :3)
finish: shrines, art, music
make more ftu layouts
make some penpals
make digital copies of my dvd collection
jailbreak the xboxes
learn to solder
ok that's just a super long list of things i've mostly been planning to
get to eventually (and some new things) but i hope those reading that are
interested will stick around to see me accomplish what i can :3 cheers!
