5-19-25
| listening: |
luther (ft sza) - kendrick lamar |
| feeling: |
like a broke bitch... |
what retail does to a mf. i don't rlly like my job, it't not bad or
anything, retail just isn't my thing. its so booooooringgg.
i don't wanna market an outfit to you, i want to set up your
network!!!!
i want to go back to my internship. ngl if i could just do that kind of
work for the rest of my life i'd be chilling. i love networking and
computers i do NOT like standing around... the clothes are cute but i do
not get enough shifts to afford anything anyway. the things i do for a
few bucks. sigh. i'm ngl i might need another job cause i can't buy shit
but literally no one wants to hire me!!! "we need employees" my ass- (on
that note i will draw for money just a reminder...)
been on my kendrick arc for the past week or so cause spotify kept
dropping random songs into my playlist cause i kept listening to 30 for
30 and luther. i've always liked a handful of kendrick songs but i'm
gonna have to listen to a full album at some point. him and sza are
cooking full course meals on their collab tracks omfg... i wish i could
get the feeling i had listening to all the stars during the black panther
movie's credits back.
that was the first marvel movie i'd seen and it got me really excited
to finally get into marvel and see what i was missing.
very unfortunate to get into marvel and then everything past endgame be
shit -v-. i don't have much to say about most of the marvel properties
but my favs have always been black panther and guardians of the galaxy.
rocket my beloved. if only u knew how cool u are (he definitely
does lol)
(i also really like mantis. she's just like me fr (autistic))
5-9-25
| watching: |
mattkc lego decomp vids |
| feeling: |
more concrete |
i'm officially hired! this will be my first retail job, and i
start tomorrow. onboarding was today and all of my managers seemed really
nice so i think it will be okay. luckily, i'm starting before the summer
rush so i should have a slow environment to learn in.
i've been going back into my techy yt rabbit hole and god i wish i knew
everything rn. i really hope i can learn javascript by the end of the
summer, i'd like to have at least one scripting language under my belt. i
wanna make videogames!!! and i wanna write random scripts to make stuff
easier for me... aughhhh i wanna know Everything right Now
i reeeeeally wanna buy
this re-imagined ipod thing
also... augfh....
this website's birthday is next week! idk if i'll do anything but i'm
thinking about it :3
5-5-25
| listening: |
circle the drain - soccer mommy |
| feeling: |
untethered |
as of a few days ago, i'm officially a high-school graduate! it's
quite nice to be moved out of my dorm and back around all of my stuff.
though i didn't realize that people give you money so now i have more
money than i know what to do with???? this isn't counting the money i
saved up from my job last year. maybe i can build a pc but honestly i
should probably focus on a stronger laptop. people keep asking me how i
feel about graduating, but honestly there isn't much to say. i feel the
same as i do all the time, just like on my birthday. i'll be starting
college in the fall so... new things are on the way?
as for my high school performance, i graduated with a pretty good act
score and gpa and some ap classes under my belt. i think i did well but i
can say that i didn't waste all of my teen years for perfect grades which
is what i really wanted.
i have a job interview set up for this week! hopefully i get a job...
that way i can save all of the graduation money and last year money. i'll
use whatever i get now for fleshing out my console collection and
fixing/setting up various things around the house (ex: craft center,
broken consoles, ethernet)
about the craft center, since joann fabrics is going out of buisness i
went to buy some things on sale. i got some scrapbook paper and clothing
patterns! i remembered i have a sewing machine, so i'm gonna try to make
a swimsuit. i hate buying them from stores cause they're always either
expensive, ugly, or both. this way i can choose my fabric and
pattern and make something i actually like!!! if this goes well, i may
make a fashion page to document more clothes i make. we'll see...
now that i'm home, i have a few things i want to do. i really want to
learn soldering to homebrew the rest of my consoles, and begin setting up
a homelab. once i get more progress on that i'll probably make a page
about it too. at the very least, i want to get my plex server working
correctly and rip all of my dvds/blurays. maybe i'll get a nas...?